Effort

As hard as it may come across
I’d not hesitate anymore
And I’ll cut down on people
Who wouldn’t invest –
Or care getting to know me
The capacity of one’s heart
The worthiness of one’s soul
The drive behind one’s mind
If you’re hoping –
Half-ass effort will unveil
Then I’m sorry to say
But you’re mistaken

Excuse yourself –
Blaming the way you are
Crawling back into the past
Holding onto – seeking
An actor fulfilling desired role
Of the one you want
Who doesn’t want you
And so pretend –
Sobbing stagnant circle
But I won’t comply
Being a toy –

In fact, you’re the monkey
Who has the diamond –
At hand, not knowing
Its real value