Remedy

By the nose leads
Up where steady ground end
Words for goodbye
Reassurance – nuance
Whichever you call it
Back into the corner
Overshadowed behind your back
I was there – hoping
Of a brief moment
Talk

Senses warned
But heartless couldn’t be
From door to door
In the dark –
Searching my remedy
What I have found
Didn’t feel – human
Begging rotten scraps
Might then drop
On me

Answer

You won’t know
Depending on the answer
I might wonder – only then
Seeking such resolution
Giving up on my past
No doubt this is all
The smoke flares up
Casts aura over the sky

But I won’t see
I won’t turn anymore

It is been a journey
Without regrets buried
We were never closer
Enough to satisfy
Neither of us could deny
Their voices knew
Bitter denial for two
At the stage we are
Despite wavering – gaze
Is being set much further
And for that reason
I will ask last time

Whether you crawl or fly

Cycle

I had to remind myself
Reasons before I acted
Recall the hurt you brought up
Breathless chasing –
Ever so slightly behind your back
And I would go on
Without a doubt – but not
There lies my demon
Born off some painful
Though resolved now past
For these answers, saying
I must

Cycle repeats – varying form
Whichever route it will transform
Bear in mind – there is a story
So let me tell you how it’s been

Crawling the bottom
Seeking a single string of light
Then when I found
I could go on, and climb
Often thrown back down, instead
Those I loved – those I love
All they did – just ignored
Burning flesh despite my cry
And I had to, had to die
But the truth is – maybe lie
That my heart has grown – and so I
Holding scars the story’s told
If you won’t then try – unfold
We cannot be I’m afraid
Out of fear, it will hurt

Inspired by -> Stay – Cat Power

As always, the photography above belongs to my own library, so I highly recommend checking out my Instagram.

Enjoy

Snappy snaps

I’m being broken
More than I thought
And so opening-up
To the wrong person
Might destroy me
As a whole

I feel hangover
Hoping I wasn’t sane
Attempting to love
Someone looking down on me

Surprising
How the tables turned
You coming in –
When I’m already leaving
This painful party of yours

Have you noticed
How far you pushed me away
Now when you shout my name
To come back, saying –
Things are gonna be different
Thanks echo for the blessing
Thus I hear only the end

 

 

Ps: These are some short verses that I’m writing on my phone every now and then when feeling like there is something worth typing down. More often than not I’m reading it out once emotion disappears, and turns out I don’t like it.

The photo is mine as well, so click click for more -> Instagram

Glow

 

Lightened by moon’s shining glow
Thinking – a fellow soul
In chase looks back
Hope for the pleasure
Re-opens these old stories
Buried deep in your heart
Before you notice
Years wasted becoming
Your future – you didn’t take
Sole regret venomous
Sadness fulfilling days
When your smile faded
The one – the past
Seen by moon’s glowing eyes

Turmoil – hot and cold
Blown sensation up the roof
Then sobbing a little –
Seeking human warmth
For words withholds
Silence better understood
Though understood you won’t be
Sensible touch of beauty
Either flower growing
Spring fires the sky
In tears you watch
But why
Your standards up high
Likes of me flies to you
Disrespect stomps down
With your chin – pride
Passing just by
All you want is there
On the golden plate
Empty – as well as
Excuse me, please

 

 

 

 

Jeez. It’s been ages since my last post – both sour, with a little spice in between.  Thought this might be a relief, and it truly is. Enjoy.

Ps: I can’t shoot to people, so I shoot dead things anyway – if you like it, visit my Instagram. There is not a lot, but will be. Maybe. Fingers crossed this will go better than my writing!

 

 

 

Clue

 

 

The second falling star crosses the sky
I thought of you – setting up high
Expectations that were meant to crumble
And I know I won’t be a memory –
Nor a scene you’ll recall
When nostalgia consumes you
Pinnacle hollows deep down below
Off of the bottom my nest lies still
This is not a place I wish –
Hope you’ll never be in
As of today the goal is clear
I will build a life I could live on

 

Withhold your questions –
I get the clue
So dance, and smile
The future doesn’t need you
Thus the past seems to be alive

 

 

 

What’s up

You were curious when we first met
Chemistry felt – vibe filled the air
You gave me a smile
Some of your life stories
Even disclosed what you hold dear
And then – all of a sudden
You were no more
You got to know me
And called it quits
For unknown reason leaving cut on me
Silent treatment – one-word reply
Whatever I did, I only tried
There is my fault – this is who I am
I’m breaking things then looking around
Just like a kid –
Playful, cat-like someone would say
Now when I see you – when you act
As if there is nothing – or nothing happened
Indeed I agree though it makes me mad
After two months you are coming back
Chit-chat of all when I’m bursting tears
Being ignored, ghosted being in here
I do I care of you having your way
And I will ask if you are doing okay
But you don’t mind – little bother I am
And so I’m glad
You will never know
What there is up my heart

Reflection

 

 

Turns out

The freedom doesn’t lie outside the boundaries
We’re born into shackles, locked down –
Into a home you wouldn’t leave free
The cage, and the one holding up the key
Is in fact – both you and me
An idealism God’s once blessing
Nectar bestowed upon human soul
Today the poison in reality’s many faces
And a tear falling down cracked shiny armour
So the shield I lifted, against very own being
Becoming a wraith, cynism my friend has become
Not these strangers I wouldn’t look up
For their ignorance, and my beautiful –
Yet broken heart

 

 

 

 

Inspired by – Bad Sign – Kellermensch

 

 

 

 

Stigma

 

There I am
Standing on the rooftop in fear
Overseeing the contempt
That leaks down my side
Where the knife pulled out
Hasn’t healed – the mind
Rolls down the blanket
Immune, invisible wants to be
When opened vulnerable spot –
Shuts down, won’t let you in
Reunite with the heart
The harmony of both eyes
Following disgraceful path
Stigma clouds the judgement –
Achievement of lesser degree
So I can’t drag you
Or please to wait
For me to heal

 

 

 

Edit: Both writings – the one from yesterday and today – are related to each other, having the same point highlighted. Whoever reads it should understand my recent absence, without posting anything for a while.

 

 

Faded

 

Jealousy of your words
That have praised the ended
A salt to my wounds
Though the pain faded

With no respect
Nor expectations towards
The niceness mistaken
For a sign

The red flag blows
In a wind strikes my eye
Examples of previous
But not my life

Composed expression
Turned off the back
Knowing that failure –
And you won’t ask

So when you don’t watch
I’ll shut down the door
Then throw out the key
Before you even know –

I’ll be gone