Self-denial would hopefully solve undermining issue which appeared at some stage of my life.
Although the struggle I had to go through, certainly there are prioritized aspects in urgent need to be experienced. Youth might disappear in a blink of an eye without any warning or so ever – leaving debris of memories, labelled as a failure.
Foggy sketch remained once the dream has become the past, but its remarkable impact knocks my consciousness, begging for a bit of attention when surpassed by the lack of vision turned into hollow. Intimidation paralysed existence and left me in the haunted-like hole, where only fear and madness controls a strand of fate.
Yet once – flattered by the one who bravely fought for her own future – part of me decided to decapitate eroded cells. Acceptance led to unexpected implications, thus glowing resolve stoned me like a heroin.
Dreaming of a journey, letting time sinking into depths of exploration, which reveals to me my mistakes.
Shattered identity, pictured or rather shaped by the past must be replaced due to upcoming challenge. Competitiveness within a glorious change should erase these flaws I was holding still for so long.
To take a risk and fail or succeed.
Reasoning over utilisation of the energy would cause more damage, getting solution back to the start. Tasteful memories composition – same as her lips and wildcat eyes – have enormous power that set fire to the flare I will follow.
Nothingness stomped me down to the ground but from now on, masks once used as a tool in the masquerade of lies are being gently framed and left along memorial dedicated to educating future me.
None of these happened without clarified reason and so I am moving on.
Youth allowance nearly reached its expiry date, writing down conclusion is meaningless as the aim is yet to be reached. Demand for decision loop just contributed to the overall shape of the image I have pictured.
Time to learn drawing or at least taking photos.
Great post as always, Matthew.
I’ve nominated you for The Mystery Blogger award 🙂
https://dragonsinmycoffee.wordpress.com/2018/07/10/the-mystery-blogger-award-and-a-bit-of-who-i-am-outside-wp/
If your blog is award-free, please consider this nomination a compliment!
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Thank you so much! There are awards as you can see somewhere along other posts. Appreciate and will complete it at some point!
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Psychological? I suppose my very shallow reading of some excerpts of the book only allowed me to see a political theme. Yeah, your use of themes is what I find thought provoking.
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There are psychological aspects, at least this is what I think. But you’re right, political theme is highlighted and pushed to the front of the story. Hm. Somehow feel good with provoking writing tho.
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yeah it’s refreshing, away from the oversaturated world of ‘trendy’ poetry, in my opinion anyway. 🙂
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To me, poetry is about pure emotional expression, I am not interested in writing as expected or matching trends. Although don’t even know any standards 😉
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Ah well that’s very noble, I suppose I lost my interest in poetry for a while, it didn’t stimulate me anymore and I fell in love with philosophy. But your writing definitely speaks from a true place. 🙂
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I wouldn’t said it’s noble, yet I am happy to hear such a kind words. Understand that, if you fell in love with philosophy then maybe even better for you. For now I need to find inspirations for upcoming pieces!
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your writing style has me transfixed, it’s incredibly thought provoking. I’d be interested to know who you read, which authors. 🙂
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Thank you. A provoking style you said? Quite surprising and don’t know how to respond to it!
The book which has the greatest impact on me, my writing and passion for books is Diuna – Frank Herbert.
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sci-fi, right? I never would have guessed that, just judging from the themes of your posts, fascinating though. (: look forward to reading more from you!
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Yeah, but Diuna has a massive psychological storyline which immersed me deeply. As to my themes, these are reflected by in-depth meaning – maybe not necessarily like Herbert, mood is mine!
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Intriguing post. Thank you for sharing — and thank you for liking my own blog the other day. Blossoming blogger here; every like counts.
-Tiffany
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You’re welcome. Always happy when my posts are appreciated. Also no need to thank me, your writing eye catched my attention.
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Hey I like reading your style of writing. And I have nominated you for liebster award. I hope you would support the WordPress community by your acceptance. The rules and guidelines for the process is here
https://uncharteredmusings.wordpress.com/2018/01/18/liebsteraward-2018/
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I’ll get it done within a couple of days due to the number of private things to be done. Also, it is my 2nd award at the same time!
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